As much as I love knitting, and absolutely love when I come up with a design idea, and even love getting it just right and writing the pattern down, I hate the test knitting stage.
This is in no way a slight to test knitters (if you are reading this!). I love test knitters. They are a fabulous breed–willing to try something they’ve never tried before, to offer feedback and honesty, and to risk ending up with something completely unwearable (gosh I hope not).
But from the first minute that I send that email out with the pattern, I get nervous. And every time I get an email from one of them with an error or problem, I feel anxious. I feel bad that I’ve let them down. Embarrassed that I made a mistake. Worried that they’ll never want to knit anything of mine again. Terrible for being a failure.
I know, I know. Telling someone to cast on 50 stitches instead of 56 hardly makes me a a failure. But sometimes, it feels that way.
Ahh…the quest for (ever elusive) perfection. I guess we’re still in our testing stages, too.